Daily Struggles

We all have daily struggles. We all have our likes, dislikes, and demons that we deal with daily. They are what defines us, but can we change them?

We all struggle with the same things as humans, and that’s what draws us together as a common bond. We have all wondered if the person we like actually likes us back, we have all been short on money at some point even if it’s just to pay for something right then, and we have all hidden struggles from those around us.

I struggle with self-perception and love. I have a hard time loving myself, because I know that I am my own worst critic. I think this is a problem that we all have and it’s something that at least I struggle with daily. I look in the mirror and hate what I see. I look at my bank account and think I should have tried harder. I look at the people around me and wonder if they like me as much as I like them. I know this because I deal with these daily.

I have tried to run from these issues, hide these issues, and finally eat these issues. I know that dealing with all of these in the wrong way have hurt me or set me back in some way. I have to accept these things, try and be happy, and live my life for the fullest. I hope that everyone else who deals with struggles either internal or externally knows that they are not alone. You have to face them, and I will let you in on a secret… eating them doesn’t actually make them go away.

What is Happiness?

I have been asking myself this for the last 25+ years and I’m not much older than that. I have always wondering what is happiness? I remember seeing people as a child that looked happy, but I wondered if I was that happy.

I know that as a child getting a new toy, staying up past your bed time, or finding a new friend can all bring happiness, but as an adult all these things have repercussions. I bought a new car, and thought I was happy until I got the first car payment. I stayed up late to catch up with friends, and then had to decide if I wanted money or sleep the next day. I have come to realize that happiness as an adult and happiness as a child are not the same thing. I have struggled with this because I miss being happy like I was as a child. Can I be that as an adult?

I don’t know if I will ever know the answer to this question, but this is my pursuit to find out. I have tried to use many things to make me happy i.e: food, people, things, but realized later that it’s not something you can put in other people or things because it’s temporary. So… what really is happiness?

My Blog

This is my blog that helps me to express my feelings, thoughts, and moments in life. I have tried to deal with my issues in many different ways, and now I am going to try writing them. I hope that this can inspire at least one person to know that they aren’t alone in what they are going through.